Sunday, December 13, 2009

froM randoM Schizo BloG

MANIFESTO or Grey Crinkled Paper #2

First, personal business: the voices are back, music especially, but also the old password voice running along, like a TV show's "audio crawler." This is very distracting, even the music, yet at times, as commentary, it seems much more truthful than what is said by those whose voices are "real" or at least non-hallucinatory. I know I saw some show with my friend Joe that illustrated what these voices are like, within other contexts and in other times, but we’ve both forgotten which show it was (perhaps Star Trek Voyager?). As I wrote in my entry on "Voices," the movie, LULU ON THE BRIDGE, gives a brief but helpful example of the more muted, confused babbling form they sometimes take, as when, for example, Harvey Keitel is walking along that wall at night...

In any event, the password voice is my one-word short-hand for the way the voices sometimes sound to me: 1) monotone 2) stage-whispered 3) secretive yet as if imparting a truth others should not hear.

That said, let me explain what they talk about:

Grey Crinkled Paper, first of all, which must be spelled grEy not grAy, though the reason for this particular spelling is unknown to me. How it came to be part of my life was, as I belive I wrote in the first Grey Crinkled Paper entry, at age 16 or 17 when my body inflated like a Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade balloon and my hands turned blue, which was the most important thing about the experience before the vision, revelation -- what have you, something that cannot be truly verbalized -- came to me in the words: Grey Crinkled Paper. It was what I understood to be a kind of holy trinity, very much like Father, Son, Holy Ghost, or Newtonís 3 laws of thermodynamics, or Einsteinís three: 1) the special theory of relativity, 2) the general theory and 3) the (never discovered) unified field theory.

Now, there are complications to this, because once I can get the problem of GCP solved at least in this world, I will be freed from the Supermetal Canister into which I was placed as punishment for some higher dimensional crime. Meanwhile, onto the walls of this canister are projected in All-Sensurround the reality of this 3-D earth-world, while electrodes, implanted in my skull, impart knowledge of cosmic history as well as of a personal life, consisting of "memories" as well as their significance.

(The other way to free myself, apart from solving the problem of Grey Crinkled Paper, would be to surgically remove these electrodes, which would be painful, but which would prove my worthiness to be welcomed back to those higher dimensions...)

To continue from previous paragraph:

which means that people here are actually no more than the equivalent of movie projections, only apparently real. When I am liberated, all of them will, along with the world and the rest of the canister’s projections, end, pfft!--with no more suffering than Humphrey Bogart "feels" when Casablanca finishes for the umpteenth time.

The Canister is made of Supermetal which has always been explained to me as Titanium/Uranium. Whether this is a feasible earthly metal alloy or simply the English equivalent for something there we have no concept for I don’t know.

Involved with this are the Five People. They 1) are not in themselves stable as persons, that is in their appearances; they will take on a body when convenient and leave it when it is no longer useful, without the real person ever being aware of it, 2) these bodies are disguises, ever-fluid and changeable at will. For example, there was one security guard when I lived in supervised housing at the old nurses' dorm at the hospital that I knew was one of the Five People, and he knew I knew, which led him to torment me openly: bugging my room, video-monitoring me, giving me non-verbal messages whenever I passed him. I recognized him, and his face stayed the same that entire year, but as soon as I moved out, he left that body and now I no longer know where he is or in which body he is hiding.

I have had for some time now a vague suspicion that the part-time social worker in this building may be one of the Five People, if not the very same one but the same one or anther it scarcely matters... 3) what I know of these Five People is little except that they used to be controlled by my father and were utilized to monitor me, and therefore theoretically they could be used to eliminate me at any time. However, my being the messenger of Grey Crinkled Paper might attentuate this power, making it impossible for someone-- whoever is behind them, whoever is controlling and sending them --to actually kill me.

Who or what these Five People are, why they are, where they come from, these non-human beings (emphatically not aliens) is not very clear to me right now beyond this. One thing I understand is that like most things in this context, they too must have some connection to the higher dimensions and Grey Crinkled Paper.

Grey Crinkled Paper BTW is a concept and is neither grey-colored nor paper-y nor crinkled. No single word of it can be taken separately to signify anything without the other two.

However, Grey Crinkled Paper doesn’t mean anything either, not even to me. It is only a message of supreme importance. It just is the vehicle, the memo given to the messenger who happens to be me, and until it is understood by all, can be understood by none and cannot be utilized as it should be to achieve world peace. The problem is that in order for anyone to get the true meaning, it must be translated 22 times by 22 native speakers of 22 different languages or dialects, two of which *must* be Arabic and Farsi (I don’t actually know if this last is a written or spoken language, moreover, I didn’t know what the word meant at all when I was first given the information and assignment at age 16).

This part is critical: The translation of Grey Crinkled Paper must be sequential in time and space and must be done without reference to or help from the original transfer-er of the message (ie me). You can think of the translation process like this: it's as if someone were to say the quay of Normandy and another person heard it as key of Norman Dee and then translated this into his or her native language. Such a misunderstanding is inevitable and it is not a error but is the entire point. Like the telephone game that kids play in which a phrase, whispered from child to child, comes out transformed at the end, so too will GCP be transformed. While the child's game’s message may be nonsense, in the 22-link chain of the Grey Crinkled Paper translation, the end result will make a sense that everyone will instantly understand and appreciate. In short it will reveal the true meaning of the phrase rather than obscuring it.

Can you understand this? The one necessary part of this process is the final translator in the chain, who must be a non-native speaker of English, who therefore would have no inherent drive to make "sense" of what he or she hears. She would only innocently convert what she is given into the English words she knows, which would turn out to be the final message, the Truth.

This is all so far focused in the Middle East, but not all the languages or dialects (so far as I can determine) need to come from that area. I know only that Farsi and Arabic *must* be among them.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

MpiX PrinteD & FraMeD 20x24

ThiS CoMPaNy doeS GooD woRK..
$100 foR priNt aNd FraMe (16x20)
{ Free ShiPPinG 'DeaL"}
( i waiTeD foR a DeaL befoRe i OrDeRed )
•NoTe: nO tripoD useD==NoT gooD FoCuS--NoT NiKoN's FauLt!
∞GOD iS GooD†

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Tuesday, September 22, 2009


Monday, September 21, 2009

An aFTeRNOON DeLighT>>>i-LOVE {mY MAC}<<

~LiGhT oFF mY FiRe~

```````My JESUS∞,,, i LOVE THEE;
aNd THOU firsT LOVED mE† !

[ becauSe YOU ARE ∞GOD:
AnD i NeeDs a SaVioR†...
iT WorKs foR mE! ]


Friday, September 18, 2009

HELP mE, PLeaSe,
To LoVe YOU mORe,,,,
i'M feeLinG dePreSSeD
thiS MoRninG..
FoR No reasoN.
i knOW YOU aRe iN CoNTroL:
'ThiS tOO shaLL PaSS'

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

NoT a WorLd WiDe WeB--jusT iN thE BacKYarD

SiDe GaTe=aT LeasT wheRe iT uSeD tO Be....

YesTerDaY thiS wouLd haVe LooKeD BeTTeR

Friday, September 11, 2009

9/11 TribuTe== L'chaiM !

frOM StaRbuCKs @ LiBeRtY StaTioN, PoiNT LoMa, SaN DieGo, CA
{ a DEACTIVATED NaVy TraiNinG BaSe---> deDiCaTeD to CuLtuRe aNd thE GooD LiFe}
GOD BLeSS AmeriCa...
{ U.S.A.>U.S.A.>U.S.A.>...........}

sEE yesTeRdaY 2 {beLoW}

Thursday, September 10, 2009

TheSe LiTTLe buLbs JusT KeeP GiVinG
20 yearS aGo soMeoNe frOM thE NetherLandS senT mE 4 liTTLe BuLbs //thiS YeaR i musT haVe severaL HundreD aLL oVeR thE
YarD..TheY groW iN suN oR shaDe aNd don'T die withouT WaTeR......

ouTsiDe mY bacK DooR...i wisH thE whoLe yarD LooKeD aS 'taKeN caRe oF'

Friday, September 4, 2009

i can'T iMagiNe a PersoN LiVinG withouT haVinG a BelieF iN G_D.
mY beLieF centerS aRouNd JESUS_CHRIST
i don'T knoW whaT thE FuTuRe wiLL brinG,
buT i knOW HE hoLds The FuTuRe.....
i finD thaT tO KeeP PosiTiVe thoughTs thaT i BeLieVe thiS^^^^^

WhaT eVeR haPPenS GOD iS iN ControL..
NoT mY wiLL buT THINE...
EveryThinG iN YOUR SweeT TiMe

3 craPPy PiCs

........................(oF) mY PerFecT LiFe!

````````````````````````````````````````````^^mY rOOm^^^

```````````````````````````````````````````^^thE gaRaGe^^^

OUTside (oF) tHe houSe
```````````````````^^froM tHe jungLe tO/oF The bacK ^^^^^

i aM sOO BLeSSeD BeyoNd MeaSuRe..
i giVe mY aLL tO/FoR thE GLoRy aNd HoNoR oF CHRIST_JESUS†
∞LORD GOD, TaKe iT, TaKe mE......
ThaNkS foR 1sT LOVING mE......


Sunday, August 30, 2009

SuNdaY===============================TaKe ouT DiNNeR `````````````````````````aNd a VisiT tO mY oLd BeacH hanG ouT

WenT ouT tO GeT DiNNeR ¬¬¬¬¬¬

oN thE waY i stoPPeD HeRe`````````````````````````````````````````````` •beLoW•
:::SuNseT CLiFFs, OceaN BeacH, (beside the PoiNt) SaN Diego, CaLiforNia¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬¬

YeaRs aGo i wouLd spenD aT leasT 1-3 houRs / DaY heRe..aLL YeaR 'RouNd.. DaY &/oR NighT\ WiNteR & SuMMeR....
oF courSe,,,
NO PeopLe tHeRe theN -[ weLL- MaYbE 1 oR 2 aT MoSt..] { ThiS iS TyPicaL oF aLL oF SaN DieGo..nOW }
``````````` i jusT sTaY hOMe..--WhiCh iS aLrighT bY mE..- --------BeeN theRe/ dONe thAT
"That the will of God will never take you, where the Grace of God will not protect you"

Thursday, August 27, 2009

ThursDaY's ChiLd froM very oLd FireFLyHD="iNprogreSS"

∞GOD iS GooD^
thiS ReTaRdaTioN (sic) iS liKe HeaVeN.
nO preSSuRe/No respoNsiBiLiTy....

••i LOVE my MAC
•••••i LOVE my SAVIOR†
PeaCe 4 aLL•••••••••••••

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

ThiS iS mY LiFe==SELFs

^coPy & paSTe^


Monday, August 24, 2009

⁄⁄/⁄⁄!////////////GOD iS GOOD\\\\\\\\\\\\\\!!!!!!!!!!

LiFe iS LiVinG:
TO Die?
^JusT don'T thinK aBouT iT...
MiNDs/ oVeR /MaTTeR.
\WhaT's thE MaTTeR.?¿?
>LooK aT thE PeriodiC TabLe.
,,,ThaT iS maTTer.
===BuT noT "_THE_ MaTTeR"

"WhaT's tHe MaTTeR?
DoN'T yoU FeeL weLL?"
`WeLL, TruthfuLLy:
NoT reaLLy!.
~oH weLL,
thuS/thiS iS LiFe:¬
•GeT uP VacuuM thE inSiDe oF tHe HouSe;
••'woRk' ouTsiDe iN thE yaRd.

∞GOD iS GooD†
G_D iS MiNd & MaTTeR
LiFe iS LoVe & SeX
```DeaTh iS nO LiFe---
+ _NO LoVe```

PeaCe ouT§

Friday, August 21, 2009

THiSe {tHeSe&tHoSe) KIDS toDaY!

¬¬¬¬¬¬¬haViNg doNe mY sHaRe==NoW mY TriPPiN' iS aLL doNe¬¬¬¬¬¬ ••••••••••iN/wiTh\bY SaTuRaTinG thiS PhoTo iN PhoToShoP¬¬¬¬¬¬¬

iT'S puReLy PersoNaL
FoR reaSoNs kNoWn oNLy tO MYseLf
BuT i caN _NoT_ aGree..
i don'T thinK thaT thiS maKeS thE worLd a BeTTer pLacE...
BuT GOD iS iN coNtroL aNd iF { i wouLd beT iT wiLL bE 'wheN' ] thiS iS LeGaL,
i PRaY thaT i haVe thE strengTh tO FoRgO thE PLeaSuRe...

'theY' saY iT brinGs iN/oN a HeaVeNly sTaTe -->buT iT~~aLonG wiTh a LiTTLe/loTs oF L S D~~ broughT mE tO ∞HeLL's veRy ThreshoLd,,,,,
ThanK YOU, CHRIST_JESUS, foR HoLdinG oN tO mY SouL^^^^

Sunday, August 16, 2009

SuNdaY WorshiP CoNT.


CaN YoU BeLieVe iT¿ rhiS PiC aNd thE oNe beLoW aRe oNe aNd thE SaMe!.....
The firsT tiMe i compreSSeD iT froM 300dPi iT chanGeD thE whoLe LooK

GOD iS iN CoNtroL...

SoNdaY PhotoshoP WorshiP SerViCe

ThiS reaLLy caMe ouT totaLLy diFFeRenT iN thE 'SaVe foR WeB' compreSSioN....
oH weLL
iT's aLL GooD..
JESUS SaVeS†††††††

Wednesday, August 12, 2009


25x36 wraP aRouNd

Monday, August 10, 2009

LooKinG oVeR aNd uP

@ The JungLe

SoMedaY i wiLL haVe thiS uNdeR coNtroL
w/GOD's heLP/
\mE, PLeaSe, LORD

Saturday, August 8, 2009

SaTur(ns)DaY PS fuN

iNsteaD oF...........................................!



Thursday, August 6, 2009

¬i 'haTe' hoSes....................................buT i LoVe waTeRinG==gO FiguRe

BacK waLk bY GaRaGe
LiTTLe biT oF PS TweeKeD

NeW LenS^^
i LiKe^

PS didN'T HelP mUcH,,,,
i'M tireD nOW.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

WhaT a DaY!!=oR=ANoTHeR DaY iN PaRaDiSe!!!

a ¿'tyPiCaL'=TroPiCaL daY @ LiBeRtY StaTioN-a RevitaLiZeD aNd PrivatiZeD U.S. NaVy (oR wouLd/shouLd iT bE 'NaVaL')RecruiT DePoT
iN PoinT LoMa, SaN DieGo, CaLiFoRniA, U.S.A.

• siTTinG ouTsiDe StarbucKs --aN aLmosT daiLy haBituaL RituaL....<--[4mE]
+iT waS 77º @5pM buT wiTh a stroNg BreeZe MaKinG iT peRfeCtLy LoVerLy,,,,,

GOD iS GooD!!!


Monday, August 3, 2009

iT starTeD ouT aS a hanginG wateRinG CaN coVereD bY sPideRweBs¬¬¬¬¬

surrounDeD by a FiCuS aNd suNdRy ViNeS^^^^^^^^^^^^
i GoTs a LiTTLe caRRieD aWaY wiTh thE PhotoShoPPiNg TriP.
WeLL, foR whaT iT isn'T woRth ==
i haD fuN pLayiNg

Saturday, August 1, 2009

2 fOr 2

=BrunfeLsia + nO PS



=FerNs w/ PS TweeKin'

@The Embarcadero in San Diego, California, USA

^^^^^^NiKoN D-700 + SpEEdLighT=+ 50mm f/9.0 1/60^^^^
```````````````````````````````````````````^^^ nO PS

=WaiTinG foR KyLe & AshLey
/// To disembark frOM LoRd HoRnBloWeR DiNNeR HaRboR CruiSe..

Friday, July 31, 2009

JusT foR FuN=STARBUCKs+HaRd MiX / PS fiLteR

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^LoTs-n-lOtS oF PS TweeKs

Thursday, July 30, 2009


foR thE mOsT parT VoLuNteeR ɪmˈpeɪʃənz

NiTe tiMe w/ fLaSh { duH¿

Wednesday, July 22, 2009


a ≤5 miNuTe iNcidenT tooK 1/2 houR to docuMenT



^^^tO saY thE LeasT^^^---+ tO ReaD MoRe sEE BeLoW¬¬

mE =in thE MiddLe oF thE CrosswaLk-->TaKeS thE PicTuRe
SHe- afteR i reach heR siDe oF thE streeT==>:"You tooK mY PicTuRe"
mE: YeS, i waS goiNg to aSk yoU iF iT waS o.K.
SHe: YoU shouLd haVe aSkeD mE firsT.....
mE: WeLL, iS iT o.K.?
SHe: YoU shouLd haVe asKeD me beFoRe yoU tooK iT...
mE: WeLL, i caN deLeTe iT..
SHe: YoU shouLd haVe asKeD mE firsT..
mE: CaN i giVe yoU MoNeY , oR doNaTe to yoUr cauSe oR soMethinG..
SHe: You shouLd haVe asKed mE befoRe yoU tooK mY PictuRe..
SHe: I doN'T coLLecT MoNeY..
mE: WeLL, i saW yoUR sigN aNd i LiKed whaT iT saiD---
mE: i saY the saMe thinG aLL the TiMe..
~ ~ ~
&& BacK & forth foR a couPle oF moRe exchangeS...
& TheN =I saiD: o.K. theN, GooD-bYe.
† † †

Monday, July 20, 2009


0.5% oF mY sTuFFs (junK/MemoRieS==yeaH=StufF))

NeW 50mm LenS & CaMaRa(sssSsss)

i jusT caN NOT heLp a LiTTLe BLuR FacToR....
i gueSS i'LL jusT haVe tO Be coNtenT wiTh aLwaYs uSiNg a TriPoD...huH?

Sunday, July 19, 2009

VersioN #2 (& FiNaL eDiTioN)

i knOW---i KnOw

=saMe aS oN "SELF"
[aLmoSt/noT quiTe--?WheRe's WaLLy?"



Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Two frOM tHe GarDeN

One PS FiLteR


PEACE ouT=======

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

DeaTh bE GoNe===To LiFe!

JESUS CHRIST†††††††††††††

Friday, June 26, 2009

GOD iS In CoNTroL!==

=Farrah Fawcett R I P=
(February 2, 1947 – June 25, 2009)
{{{{ouT oF heR MiSeRY ToDaY))))){{{ i PRaY)))
CoMe QuicKLy 4 mE, LORD JESUS,

TrY aNd tRy aGaiN TheN

aPPariTion |ˌapəˈri sh ən|
aBerraTion |ˌabəˈrā sh ən|

consecration |ˌkänsiˈkrā sh ən|
`````````````````````````i kNoW iT aiN'T (sic) _'PerFecT'_
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^_________BuT oNLy _HE iS='_'


Monday, June 22, 2009

jusT a LiTTLe PhotoShoP


SticK BuGs

foR coMpLeTe expLanatioN gO tO
____________^^^^^^copy pasTe^^^^^^^ -------oR_____cLicK aT tHe veRy toP RighT oN thE "seLf PiC {{DaiLy PHoTo LinK}} aNd LooK aT eNtrY #286===>>>^^^